Chasing Rainbows!

I am sitting outside on the deck the sun is shining and the sky is blue. I love mornings like this when everyone is still asleep and I can have a few minutes to just think.
Sunday I was sitting on my bed and here comes Carson running full speed into my room in his green monkey pj's and excited as can be. "Mom come here. Do you wanna have some fun?" I followed him out the door and said "sure what are we going to do?" As he jump of the stair of the deck I caught up with him and grabbed his hand and he said "we are going to catch that rainbow." We are going to slide on it. So we ran for a minute and I said son "I think it went to far away." With a smile he replied "Yeah it went to the farm and it is to far away but next time we will catch it."
My baby turned 4 yesterday. He is so much fun and I love that he is getting big enough to hang with the kids and be excited about big kid things. No more diapers, naps, bottles and packing 2 bags everywhere you go. I really love this age it is really fun. But as I sit here and think about how fast he has grown up I get a little teary eyed. He was so tiny when he was born and has never really ever been a very big child. He is so cute and has the funniest personality. He spends hours and hours roaming around the house and shop "working" I remember before we found out he was coming a few months before I had miscarried. When we found out we were expecting I was so excited. He was worth every second of the barfing, and bed rest. I can not even for a second imagine life without him. He was so worth the wait. Carson today I want you to know how much I adore you. You are Moms littles babiest boy. Thank you for being you and helping us laugh everyday. May you always chase rainbows because I believe some day you will actually catch one.

Now I feel like I am constantly writing about Carson, but I also have 2 other amazing kiddos. Red (Hayden) is in all-stars baseball and we are so proud of him. He has already sold enough fundraiser tickets to pay for half of his cost and plans on selling as many more as he can. He is such a responsible guy (he would be upset if I put kid.) and helps so much with Carson while I work. Hayden is very determined and if he puts his mind to it he is going to do it. much to my anxiety he is working on a double back flip on the tramp now. He always wants to be first and will push himself to do it. He gets fantastic grades in school and excels at every sport he plays. (not quite sure where that talent came from.) I want to explain why we call him Red. When Hayden was little he hated his red hair. I think he was the only one because everywhere he went people admired it. Because I do hair I didn't have a problem letting experiement with different colors from dark brown to bleach blonde.(much to the demise of Dad and Grandma Bone:)) Red has this streak in the back of his hair that is white blonde naturally. He started wrestling when he was about 5 and he had a coach that started calling him Red because there were so many other Haydens, and it stuck. Soon He started asking us, teachers and friends to call him Red. Just a quick note he took 3rd at state wrestling that first year. When we moved to Newdale he just told everyone that is what he wanted to be called. His 6th grade teacher Mrs. Stewart.... Who we LOVE (one of those teachers that changes kids lives.) let him sign his name and Red and called him that all thru class. It is fun that he embraces what Heavenly Father gave him and is proud to be Red.
Hayden, I am to hard on you and I don't tell you near enough how amazing you are. You are my angel and several times I wonder where I would be if you hadn't have said you would come into my life before this life. Thank you for choosing me. Thank for teaching me determination. I know that some day you will achieve all of your dreams and then some. I Love your guts .

Now Miss Maycee. Our only girl and she is definately a girly girl. Once she said to me Mom you don't know fashion I know fashion..... I think she was 4 at the time. This girl is a spit fire and she tells you like it is wether you want to hear it or not. She never backs down. She loves to use her imagination and is always wanting to draw, paint, and create things. Yesterday for her brothers birthday she painted him rock green(because he is the green guy.) She wrapped in scrapbook paper and taped it so well he couldn't get it opened.:) He was so excited. Anyway as fiesty as she is, you will never ever meet a someone with a bigger heart and more compassion.(once again no idea where she gets it.) She is always thinking of others. Everytimes someone comes over they leave with something of hers if they say they like it and usually it is something she loves. She always says oh I really don't ever wear that or use that. It is so amazing to me. Maycee loves to cook (really don't know where she got that at all.) She is pretty good at it too. She makes killer french toast and scrampled eggs. For fathers day she made Paul and I breakfast in bed. I got it because she said that she forgot it on mothers day.
Maycee has never met a stranger. She loves everyone. She will play with kids her own age or way younger, but the neatest thing is when she is around adults it is like she doesn't know she is a child. She will have conversations with them like they are her best friends. Something that just amazes me is Maycee will go with me to work (I work with the elderly) and she will spend hours visiting with the residents. She sits with them so they are not alone. Recently when one of our residents passed away his wife was left behind. They had been married over 65 years. Maycee just cried she was so worried about the wife and wrote her a card that said I Love You. When I took Maycer in to see her. She apologized and just hugged her with tears in her eyes. What 9 year old does that. She loves babies and was and is so much help with Carson She is a mother hen. I think if she had her way we would have a lot more babies. She love to spend time with her little cousin Allie whenever she has the chance. Maycee is tenderhearted. If she someone hurting 9 times out of 10 she will cry. She just cares so much about people. Maycer You are such a little doll baby. Thank you for teaching me compassion. I Luv U Sissy.

I am not sure why I felt like I needed to let each of my children know what I love about them and why they are so important to me only that I needed to. I don't really blog so that anyone that read it can listen to me brag about my children or hear about my day I do it so that I can remember the really special or fun moments that we all to often tend to forget.

I also feel as though I need to express my graditude to my Savior and to tell my children who will no doubt read these at some point in there life that I Love my Heavenly Father and my Brother Jesus Christ and I am so very grateful for there love for me. Kids if and when you read this please know that as I don't say it near enough. Heavenly Father knows me and he know each one of the three of you. It wasn't an accident that you came to live with Dad and I and We Love you so much. I only hope I can teach you all that you need to learn and that you always know what you are worth. Hang on to the gospel...it will get you thru some really hard stuff and make the good stuff that much better.
I Luv ur little guts.
Mom.

OUCH!

I spent last weekend in Utah with 2 really great friends. It was quite a trip to say the least. I wasn't feeling well, but still drove down on Thursday thinking it would pass. As the weekend went on I was just feeling worse and worse. I kept saying I am ok, it is just gas. I really didn't want to ruin this fun weekend for my friends and I.

We stayed at Terrins Dad's fiances for the weekend. It was so nice of her to let us stay. We were lounging on the couch when the lady that rents the basement and her daughter came upstairs to inform me that she(the daughter) forgot to set her emergency brake and her car backed into mine.....Ouch #1 That one is a $1638.00 one.

Then later that afternoon we headed to dinner this was after a day of shopping. I still was feeling well crappy. Anyway we were in the car and I set my wedding ring on the seat in when we drove forward the ring slid back and fell down a little hole where the seat belt was and under the carpet inbetween the undercarriage and carpet of the car. OUCHY #2.... The next day nurse Tia worked her tail off and got it out. Bless your heart.

I loved spending time with Tia and Terrin. We laughed and just talked. What 2 amazing friends.

Saturday afternoon I went to Provo to see my Sis-in-law Kelly she did my hair....LOVE IT. Then we grabbed a sandwich and went to her house to change to go to dessert with my cousin Brook. By this point in time I am about to die, but who is going to pass up dessert at a place called Chocolate. (not this gal.) I should have known that when I was having a hard time buttoning my pants before I left something was really wrong.....After and hour and a failed attempt at a good time for me anyway we went back to Kellys where she ran me a hot bath and a shook with chattering teeth. I went to sleep and woke up the next morning thinking okay that was not fun. I put my sweats and hat and a little makeup on and headed for home. By the time I reached Centerville I was dying or so I thought. I called my mother in law and she talked me through till Willard. I made it to about Malad and stopped to use the bathroom and realized I didn't know if I could make it the rest of the way. I called Paul and told him something was really wrong. He said he would come get me and I told him I would just meet him at Community Care. Then I called my friend Tia who said I should probably head straight to the ER. I let my parents know that I wouldn't be able to meet them in Pocatello that I just wanted to get home. My Mom called back and said meet us in Idaho Falls that they wanted to know I was ok. We met at a truck stop where my Dad and Grandpa gave me a blessing. How amazing that I had these two wonderful men in my life and that they are worthy priesthood holders. I Love my Grandpa and my Dad and what a great example they are to me. Then Dad said Mom is driving you the rest of the way. I must have looked pretty hammered. I had driven all the way freezing and hurting with the heat full blast bent over in the seat. We got to the ER where they took me back and put and IV and pain killers in me and then we waited. Blood was taken and a Cat Scan done. The blood work came back normal.... we waited some more. I had an Oviaran cyst rupture and matter in my uterus. OUCH #3! 1 Blighted ovem. 2 Miscarriages and 3 child births a broken hip and ruptured appendix and I am sure this is the worst pain I have ever had. They said that I had to come back the next day for ultrasounds to see what the matter was. They even said the C word (cancer) which freaked me out a little. I am so grateful for the wonderful friends or should I say Sisters that I have who told me that they knew it was going to be ok. Terrin, Tia, Kelly, Holly, Heather, Wendy and my other Mom Helen. I was really nervous. As it turns out it was fluid from the ruptured cyst and I am going to live after all. I am also so grateful for the friends and family who brought dinner Glenda, Holly and Brook. I feel so so blessed to have these amazing angels in my life everyday. My cute Grandma called every# she could thing of to see if I was going to be okay.

I am expecially GRATEFUL for my Mom who came and helped me with my kiddos, planted flowers and held my hand.

Paul was so great! He even stayed in the room when they did the IV and bloodwork. I am lucky to have him and feel so bad that it took me 11 years to realize it. Thanks Babe. I LUV U!

I am so Thankful to my Heavenly Father that this was just a minor thing. I am blessed everyday and I know that he has a hand in my life. He has put amazing people into my life. I have such a great life. :)

Humpty Umpty Oh

Maycee was reading Carson some nursery rhymes in the car. Old McDonald... She would read what the animal did and Carson would say the eieio. After Old McDonald was done and Maycee was reading the next one Carson would finish each one with eieio.......Then it was Humpty Dumpty, when Maycee finished it Carson said "Humpty Umpty Oh. So perfect for Mothers Day. And this is why I am a Mom.

Your not being very nice to me.

Me "Carson don't go outside right now. It is to cold."
Carson "Mom you are not being very nice to me."
Maycee "Mom it isn't cold that is why I am wearing my flip flop, besides I don't even want to go on an Easter egg hunt because if I find and egg then my primary teacher will make me give it to a little kid.."
Not sure where that one came from.
Wish the sun was not just cosmetic and it would warm up man I need summer to get here. Happy Easter everyone.

Funny Boy

Our little Carson what a funny kid. A few of the funny things he said that I need to blog so I will always remember them. He had his tonsil and adnoids out and tube in his ears. A week after it happened he fell off a chair and split his lip clear open. Needless to say it was a bad day. I ran him to the doctor and he looked at the receptionist and said " I Hate My Life." We were all cracking up. He was so serious and we all knew he meant it. He also said over and over "my froat(throat) hurts and I want to go to the hospital and get my froat back in." "I swallowed my froat." One of my favorite things he said is "That is so dang cute." or "thats dewicious" (Delicious.) Today he told me to "Change my attitude." I can't believe how funny this little man is. Because of him we will always say lue lankey(blue blanky) and flate (plate.) Yesterday we took our puppy Doc in to get neutered and Carson was so worried about him. He cried all the way to school because he didn't want to leave Doc at the hospital to get his tonsils out because it would hurt. He said "Doc got and ear fection and he has to get his tonsils out? I want to go get him and bring him home. I can't image our life without this little guy. He lights up our life and brings so much joy into our home. It is funny how much more patient you are with the last one and how bad you want them to stay little. I so wish that I would have been that way with Hayden and Maycee. I was in such a hurry with them. Everyday I look at these kids and thank my Heavenly Father for the joy that they are in my life. What a blessing and how lucky I am that they call me Mom.